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Jessica is expecting her first child. But why isn´t she transformed by maternal feelings? Where is the all-consuming love she´s supposed to feel for her child? No-one told her you don´t always love your baby. Perhaps its best if Jessica keeps that dark secret to herself for now...

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I deserve all this because I did the worst thing a woman can do. The very worst.

Jessica´s wedding was like a fairytale. Her dress strewn with crystals. Her dad made a tearful speech. Her husband Matthew declared himself the luckiest man alive.

But when their beautiful baby girl is born, Jessica is gripped by panic. She can´t tell anyone how she feels. Even when her life starts to spiral out of control...

This is her story. A mother´s story.

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´Prowse handles her explosive subject with delicate skill ... Deeply moving and inspiring´ Daily Mail .

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Prowse, Amanda
Amanda Prowse is the author of several novels including the number 1 bestsellers <i>What Have I Done?</i>, <i>Perfect Daughter</i> and <i>My Husband´s Wife</i>. Her books have sold millions of copies worldwide, and she is published in dozens of languages. Described by reviewers as ´the queen of family drama´, Amanda´s characters and stories are often inspired by real life issues. The research for her books has led to partnerships with ITV and Femail among others. Amanda lives in Bristol with her husband and two sons. As her many twitter followers know, she almost never switches off. But when she does, she can be found drinking tea in her favourite armchair, scribbling ideas for her next book.

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